When it comes to goals, adjusting my thoughts about the true expanse of my goals has helped.

There was a thread on the Doctor Who Forum where someone wondered if fan scripts ever get made into episodes. Someone gave the excellent advice that, if you want to write for Doctor Who, what you really need to ask yourself is, “do I want to be a television script writer?” Because, while you can write all the fan fiction you want, there’s a lot more work, and generalist work, involved in achieving an actual episode of the show.

I’ve often thought, “oh, I’d like to teach science or anthropology,” or, “I’d like to fix Macs for a living,” or, “I’d like to run a pub” or “get involved in global water/food access issues” — but there are more things involved in actually achieving those goals. One should want all the things involved in being a teacher or academic/professor, or all the things involved in general computer repair, software and network support. One needs to want to run a business and all that entails, or get into law or fundraising. These generalities are a bit more daunting to take on board. Also, when it comes to global causes and changing the world, I think I’m adjusting my perspective to see the utility of small contributions and changes, and one’s small place in larger projects over which one has little control.

I’m not sure what I’m capable of, which can terrify me when thinking about potential goals. But, trying to get there is the whole point. Trying to surround myself with people and activities that nurture and encourage my humanity, and hopefully being a part of that for others. Trying to increase my organizational and learning skills, to live better and more wholly, and finding ways to be happy with the journey.